Weirdly...

How interesting and helpful that the last entry, just before the action hotted up on the Nunhead Open http://thesurgery.turnpiece.net/gallery/3229 and my show at the Kitchen Window Gallery http://thekitchenwindowgallery.blogspot.co.uk/, I had posted a picture of my swollen face.. Just this Thursday gone people I came into contact with throughout the day were remarking on how well I looked. I thought that I did too. However I was not feeling good and I'd been getting very little sleep because about a week previously I started to itch very intensely particularly at night. I was feeling very puzzled because this very same day a new flare-up had come on so hard and fast, within a couple of hours, and seemingly without warning. Not so, I discover when re-visiting this blog. The proof is in the picture. I was already experiencing warning signs. I'd conveniently forgotten that I'd also had to cry off during the Nunhead Open hanging days; something I had hated doing. More warning signs. I didn't ignore them but I didn't listen hard enough.


I realise now that I've been having trouble taking this process as seriously as it requires me too. If I'm honest I've been dipping in and out of it according to my committments. I now know that there is a very real cost from taking any kind of work on, even just meeting a friend for lunch or tea means sacrificing part of my treatment. Now that I have honoured my work committments, and I am proud that I have, I am making a promise to myself. Now I must commit to the full Gerson treatment if I am to make a full recovery and this means spending a lot of time with myself and no deviations. The treatment takes up almost every minute of every day and I have to be extremely organised and strong willed. I find this idea scarey because although I like my own company there is a risk of my becoming isolated in the process. That said there is no going back now. No more "oh fuck it I'm going to down a whole packet of visa versa chocolates in one go nobody'll know" incidents at the cinema. Bloody yummy though! No more "what's a couple of missed juicing, coffee and meditation days?". No more messing, I'm getting back on the healing track Jack!

Thankyou thankyou thankyou, you know who you are, to those who have made it possible this month for me to continue with supplementation and skin soothing and hydration. I have been able to pay my grocery bill, buy a bottle of Ascorbyl Palmitate, for info on why:http://www.atoneonline.com/blog/2012/fat-soluble-versus-water-soluble-vitamin-c/, a bottle of Nutri Thyroid natural thyroid support, a bottle of L Glutamine:http://www.l-glutaminebenefits.com/glutamine-benefits-for-the-stomach/, a bottle of Pantothenic Acid https://www.organicfacts.net/health-benefits/vitamins/vitamin-b5-or-pantothenic-acid, and four tubes of Hope's Relief Creme to help soothe and nourish itching and enflamed skin and two packets of organic coffee for enemas. Total value equalling £157. I still need four bottles of Essential fatty acid complex, a bottle of Blue Green Algae capsules and a bottle of Selenium capsules total value of £70 and there is an ongoing need for help with coffee and groceries. Any offers or contributions will be warmly recieved..Failing this, short visits, phone calls, blog comments or messages of encouragement always go down well and serve to keep the boat floating.

I wanted this entry to be a bit more entertaining and was coming to that, however itching has become unbearable and I'm going to have to go and either rip my arms to shreds or do tonight's mummy impression with clay and bandage. For now I'm glad we've re-connected and here's a nice song until next time...https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=uHdNCHomHlU