Hello Sunshine!

Lovely bit of Sunshine on my window sill! I'm already feeling the pain that comes with the dwindling of this luscious light and being able to position myself in the afternoon sunlight, bathing my my face fully in it as an aid to my meditations. I struggle with just being and it's so much easier when my friend the sun is shining.

It's been a couple of weeks since I wrote anything here. I had a delayed reaction to working on the Nunhead Open. By the way the open was a triumph and so good for me. It wasn't the work, I loved every minute of that. However whilst working, for practical reasons, I couldn't keep up my Gerson treatment at all and having to eat meals at all the wrong times coupled with the not so good but immediate and very tasty foods, (thank you Bajan Spice in Nunhead) put a strain on things. There was a price to pay.

Essentially the experience has made me appreciate yet another layer of myself that is sooo in denial and actually downright belligerent about the current state of affairs. My body is vulnerable and I mustn't deviate from the job. It's in the process of some deap healing and needs all the support and energy it can get because reserves are quite low. This is not forever but it is for the time being and healing won't be hurried or messed with anymore. So I was a bit naughty. This week I went to collect my arts therapy kit school. Closure on that one. It was an emotional experience and I needed to do something nice afterwards. A great friend of mine came with me and we decided to go and have a slap-up vietnamese meal with pudding, to cheer us up but also for old times sake. It was delicious; please go I recommend it highly, http://www.cafeeastpho.co.uk/.The week before this I had a wonderful English breakfast, with pudding and with another fabulous friend. I believe that both of these meals, especially the puddings put a huge strain on my system, so the latest flare-up is my body saying "ouch!". Cleansing and detoxing is well underway now and it's not pleasant or pretty..I've learned my lesson and I'm trying to settle into the idea that this is just how things are going to be for a while yet. So any non extortionate vegan style sugar free, wheatfree cafe or restaurant recommendations will be gratefully recieved.

Anyway for now I'm just proud that I've managed a blog entry and hope that momentum will return now that I've done it. I have to admit I've been down in the dumps and pretty demoralised with this latest flare-up. A dear friend sent me this radio programme recording by a journalist with 'skin issues'. It really moved me and I'm left with a sense of longing..If only I could see the beauty in these scars (of mine). Here's the link please listen if you'd like to get a sense of what it's like..http://downloads.bbc.co.uk/podcasts/radio3/essay/essay_20141014-2245a.mp

Last-ish word..My dear sister Sarah came to visit me today. She allowed me to have a rant and a cry without trying to tidy me up or offer me solutions and she told me I'm beautiful and hugged me whole heartedly....Words can't adequately express how much this has helped to raise my spirits, thankyou thank you my lovely Sarah, you know I'm writing this blog because of you.

DONATIONS NEEDED URGENTLY!

Again as the month progresses the worry about how I will manage to get hold of the supplements and oils takes hold.I am about to run out of Essential Fatty Acid oil for my skin, Bluegreen Algae capsules for essential minerals and vitamins, L-Glutamine powder for gut healing and production of gastric juices , Liver capsules, Pancreatine for digestive enzymes to aid digestive process, and as always organic coffee and organic veg by the truck load (I'm two weeks behind). Paul Cole ( formally of Abel and Cole) of Capricorn Organics is brilliant by the way I recommend him very highly for top quality fruit, veg and much more, to your door.http://www.capricornorganics.co.uk/. Two fingers up to Abel and Cole! over and out for today..