Lola and I have just meditated together! As you can see it's had a wonderful affect on us both..
The environment was perfect for it. It's a blowy day here in a courner of Kerry with the sound of the trees swaying in the wind like oceon waves, the breath of life; and our breathing, a lullaby engulfing this room from all sides..I feel 'held' in the arms of life. What a hippy I've become. And proud!
I've just finished a weekend of Qui-gong. I've learned how to breath in and out and to move my body in a way that just feels so right for me. So I will be continuing with this learning as I KEEP GOING with all my other stuff.
The women who shared the Qui-gong weekend with me were so good. Nine good women. A good number anyway in Qui-gong terms. Everything in multiples of three. Each woman ordinary and so special in her own right. Each woman with her own unique story to tell. The giving and receiving felt like a microcosm of what life is all about. One of these women Lisa gave me an insight that I feel has helped me in ways that I am still digesting. She offerred that maybe everything I'm doing and have done for my health is working and that I simply need to trust my body to continue doing what it's doing. It doesn't sound like much does it? However it's made me realise how mean I've been being to myself. I think I've literallly been doing what my mother used to do. Standing over myself tapping my fingers, sighing, looking at my watch and saying 'pah, is that all? come on, come on, I'm in a hurry, I haven't got time for this!" You know this kind of thing. It's abuse isn't it. Lisa you've helped me to remember to celebrate my successes and to allow myself time to heal. After all one year and two months is only 2.2 percent of my life so far!
So today I practiced a meditation from Reggie Ray's teachings recommended by a good friend. Again learning to breath; learning to live. I love it! I recommend these teachings highly. They are very simple, so that you can really get in touch with and feel the complexity of your body without the mental chit chat. I am discovering through my body what I hold onto. As I become more aware of the tensions in various parts of my body I become aware simultaneously of what I can let go of. It's not an intellectual process at all and the sense of physical and so mental freedom that arises in the process is awesome! There's everything you need to start you off for free on this very generous website.
http://www.dharmaocean.org/meditation/learn-to-meditate/learn-to-meditate-awakening-the-heart/
So current themes in my mind. My mother was emotionally absent. I was a premature baby. I was born six weeks early.I
was in an incubator for about four weeks. I remember there were no edges. I remember this because I have done the work to understand my triggers and to really appreciate the importance of being and feeling held. I'm still at it. Also I trained hard to work with children with attachment struggles. Now I understand from the inside out. It's what I'm meant to do and the seemingly dissonant pieces begin to fit together eventually. It's the telling of the story as it comes together, slowly and gently. I'm attempting to chart this process...
So this one is for the beautiful Courtney. Please sing it if you know it, or listen, http://youtu.be/luxHpy7IKRM
I listen for your footsteps
Comin' up the drive
Listen for your footsteps
But they don't arrive
Waitin' for your knock dear
On my old front door
I don't hear it
Does it mean you don't love me any more
I hear the clock a'tickin
On the mantel shelf
See the hands a'movin
But I'm by myself
I wonder where you are tonight
And why I'm by myself
I don't see you
Does it mean you don't love me any more
Don't pass me by don't make me cry
Don't make me blue
'Cause you know darlin' I love only you
You'll never know it hurts me so
How I hate to see you go
Don't pass me by, don't make me cry
Don't make me blue
I'm sorry that I doubted you
You were so unfair
You were in a car crash
And you lost your hair
You said that you would be late
About an hour or two
Well that's alright I'm waiting here
Just waiting to hear from you
Don't pass me by don't make me cry
Don't make me blue
'Cause you know darlin' I love only you
You'll never know it hurts me so
How I hate to see you go
Don't pass me by, don't make me cry
Don't make me blue
Don't pass me by don't make me cry
Don't make me blue
'Cause you know darlin' I love only you
You'll never know it hurt me so
I hate to see you go
Don't pass me by, don't make me cry
Don't make me blue
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