Bloody hell it's been nearly two months since my last entry and I'd got myself into a bit of a pickle about continuing this blog. I want to tell the hospital stay story but I also don't really want to re-visit it. It was so bizarre and scarey. Just to get myself back into the swing, I have taken a massive breath in and plunged back into these pages. This is enough for now.
Today has not started too well. I feel angry and upset. There have been massive improvements, there really have and my hard hard work paying off. However I'm not going to pretend that I don't still have bad days. I still need support and doing this blog had felt supportive. Today I'm tired of battling with my skin's condition, I'm sick of not being able to just get up in the morning and go, without adverse consequences. I'm angry that I can't say 'fuck it", (well I can, and I did on Saturday) and go and scoff steak and kidney pie, chips and peas with my mates in a cafe in Deptford without my body going "Yeurk!!" It sucks!
Today I must do my tax returns, I have an extension from the government on account of my lack of talent with numbers, and today is the last day....probably a lot to do with why I feel like shit. The preverbial 'straw that broke..'thingey.
So I've done an entry of sorts now and just so (I'm) we're clear, I'm still trying to heal myself at home with non- alopathic medicine, yoga, re-bounding, juicing, diet and meditation and the all famous 'backwards' coffees. My circulation is shot, still get blue hands and feet, there's a permanent buzzing in my head, my skin is hanging off, my Lymph system still needs a jump start twice a day and my body is still not absorbing essential nutrients properly. It's truffing hard work, expensive and some days I feel like I'm going insane. But I'm back. I'm back doing the blog, feels good. Keep on keeping on Caroline hah hah!
Todays song, sing along and don't forget to 'head dance'
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=NgLq6d_w4e4
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