Introduction

I'd like to introduce you to my juicing elbow. There's a lump the size of a golf ball now. I think it's a blocked lymph-node from the repetitive strain of the hand cranking. There's no pain when I'm juicing but it does hurt at night, alot. Not a pretty sight and nor am I at the moment. I'm re-visiting the beginning stages of this thing as part of my treatment in order to come un-stuck. I've been stuck. I am addressing some very deap emotional 'stuff' with homeopathic remedies at the moment. There are layers to treat and this is the bottom layer, so vitally important as it is the basis for everything. The foundations are being excavated and re-laid. We treat this and we are treating everything that came as a result..afterwards. It's a profound experience and I've had a wobble this week. I'm working with a new homeopath. I'm impressed with her, she's very spiritual and fey. She sees and feels me, my history my emotional life and I trust her.

I have learned so far that the digestive tract is everything when we embark on a self-healing journey, however underneath this layer always, are the emotions. Every dis-ease has it's roots in the emotional life. So what we are working on right now is key.It can be very scarey indeed I can tell you. I actually look like Marlon Brando in 'The God Father' at the moment, my face is all puffy and yellow. It's not a look I recommend for anyone, specially if you're a girl. Also it really does breathe life into alot of demons for me. It feels as if my skin has aged twenty years and I turned fifty in December. I wasn't planning to age this much in eight months. No time to grieve or try preventative beauty treatments just bamb! "hello you're 70 now love, don't make a fuss!" I'm told it'll all go back to normal, but it's hard to believe. I'm telling you, I'm going to do something really significant to mark the time when this is all over.

Just preparing to leave my gorgeous bedroom this weekend as I have found a really lovely Australian woman to rent it out for a few months. I knew immediately that she was right. I think she'd going tobe a bit of a gift in this house, so not all bad..