Beauty tips for creatures of the night..

On a more positive note I'm going to share what I have learned for skin splitting and moisturization. I will include links to all suppliers at the end of this entry. I've tried many things and it's important to say that none will be a cure because that comes from working on the inside and requires more committment. Also this is what works for me so there is absolutely no guarentee it will work for someone else, we are all our own blueprint after all. So I discovered Bentonite Clay. I tried drinking it combined with ground Psyllium Husk for help with healing the gut and liver and this does work really well if you have no skin issues however for me, taking it internally is just too drying right now. I'll come back to that one when my skin is more healed.

Now for an over-night treatment of extremely itchy skin, I use it mixed with warm water packed onto very moisurized skin. First I will give the skin a quick soak in a sink of warm water with a half a tea cup of Biona Apple Cider Vinegar (with the mother). Then I will try really hard not to scrub it dry with the towel just gently pat dry. Use an old towel and spread it over the area you are working at. After this I smooth on some Naissance organic unrefined Shea butter which goes some way towards keeping the skin hydrated. Then I spoon the bentontie clay paste mix quite thickly over the affected area and wrap it in cling-film. To keep it all in place (it is messy)I bandage it up in cotton crepe bandage which can be found in any half way decent chemist.In the morning the skin is a bit prune-like for a short time but the splits are very clean, much improved and you haven't been able to get at it to scratch it within an inch of it's sorry litle life.

Et Voila! it's definately a look!

http://www.clayremedies.com/Info_About_Edible_Clays.html

Bentonite Clay powder, Shea Butter by Naissance and Biona Apple Cider Vinegar with the mother can be bought on Amazon or at a good health foods shop.

Playing this loud

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=7Nsv_bPSpcw

Corny.. but true today.. achieved alot yesterday, but paying the price today.. this song came into my mind and other more relationship orientated scenarios when I've felt like this.

Had a terrible night with intense muscular pain that made me cry..Resting and juicing will be today.

Opportunity?

http://helpfundme.com/?download=heartsleeve

My local music shop Sound Heart on Brockley Rise SE23, a very friendly and relaxed bunch, whom I highly recommend for music tuition and supplies if you don't know them already, have very kindly offered the shop as a venue for a coffe and cake morning as a fund raiser.

http://soundheartmusic.co.uk/soundheart-forrest-hill/

I am looking for donations of home-made cakes and possibly the loan of some cafetieres. I will most probably arrange this in the next couple of weeks for a Wednesday or Friday. I will keep you posted about the date and time. I got a letter on Friday informing me that my job no longer exists due to lack of funding.. lawks a mimi, whatever next! No this is an opportunity. The canvas is definately blank now. To quote a person very dear to my heart 'Scarey!...and exciting!Or another who told me "When your back's against the wall you'll never feel more alive" Though he told me today he really meant to say 'you'll never be more petrified'
By the way I've just had a lovely lunch OUT and a lovely exhibition by Quebecian artist Josee Dubeau at The Kitchen Window Gallery. Really lovely experience..

http://thekitchenwindowgallery.blogspot.co.uk/

re-bounding

So funny when you're in the mood.... Because my Lymph and digestive system are not functioning at full speed I need to kick start the system. Re-bounding involves bouncing merrily on a mini trampoline for ten minutes a few times a day. It's also surprisingly good for pain if you can drag yourself on to it and do it gently. I recommend it highly. Most importantly it lifts my spirits and I like watching the streets below my house go up and down..I'm happy to say my energy is coming back. I HAVE SLEPT FOR THREE NIGHTS! HAL LE LOO YAH! I've baked two loafs of olive and sundried tomatoe bread already and it looks like I'm going to lunch with friends! I'm on day release today, must try not to get too excited and dribble with the joy of it.. For more info on re-bounding see:

http://www.mygutsy.com/jump-out-the-toxins-rebounding-for-lymph-drainage/

I forgot...'The Curtains of Zagra'

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=dZlch5szCUE

Here's a song by under-acknowledged artist song-writer and genuinely nice man Mikey Georgeson.

I've played it many times of late. I urge you to look up and buy the album, every track is a gem!

Feeling positive!

I'm feeling much stronger today. It's 2.30 and I've really achieved alot. I've made three juices already, also baked a lovely couple of spelt and mixed seed yeast free bread and a delicious courgette and fennel soup.
http://allrecipes.co.uk/recipe/12267/courgette-and-fennel-soup.aspx
I've also done a guided EFT 'tapping' session which really made me smile.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=8WSUhimBcnU&list=PL9CTvnrgVcaAJWEBuFG_1yGYKZRcv9VP3

I think Joseph Anthony has borrowed Groucho Marx's facial hair for this but hey what ever turns him on. EFT is a wonderful free and easily transportable resource. It works through forcing a gentle shift in our energy by tapping on well known meridian points on the upper body. You really can do it anywhere and you can also tailor it completely to your own likes and dislikes. For a full explanation here's another link.
http://eft.mercola.com/
I've found it immensley helpful, particularly in the midst of maybe a week of continuous and relentless itching that will not stop. The itching is really not too bad today and wasn't too bad yesterday, so I've made several appointments for next week. Just trusting that this improvement will be a sustained one so that I don't have to cancel any of them.I'm purculating ideas for artwork around accepting invitations and having to cancel at the last mminute, but also around the feelings I have about not being there when "everyone else' is. Perhaps a collection of badges.I have an event coming up this Sunday that I really want to get to, I think I will make a badge for each scenario (if I make it there/if I don't)..........off to make another juice now..

UPDATE

This illness began with the break down of my endocrine system. So my Liver, my thyroid gland, my Lymphatic and my Adrenal systems all crashed and because my liver was so low in it's functioning the next available organ for processing toxins, my skin, began to try to cope with the job. This for me meant a severe break out of psoriasis all over my body and I was pushing out poisons from literally every pore. This is still happening but it is less relentlous now that I am attempting to treat it holistically and less violent. However there is a long way to go and I have days sometimes weeks at a time when I do not sleep and cannot function for the continuous extreme and dibhilitating itching. The skin becomes so built up and dry that it will crack open if I move. This includes my face, my wrists and my ankles, making simple things like smiling, walking, just moving too fast very painful. My thoughts become scattered and my memory is very fragmented and I have little energy left for much other than the treatment. When I have more than one full day of treatment available to me , which is a full day of work in itself , I begin to feel a difference and I begin to feel that there is positive change happening. Much of the Gerson work and the work I am doing with my homeopath and with my own way's of thinking at this stage has to be about stregthening the Liver and this is gradual and ongoing.....

by request a picture of me smiling (and looking/feeling normal) can't remember what that feels like

Heliotrope

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=3MYJEm99MYQ

".....the will to recovery is the natural drive of the organism" Peter Schellenbaum 'The Wound of the Unloved'.

As promised a piece of the puzzle..an explanation. Yes you did see the word enema a few days ago...ooower missus!
The purpose of the enema is to assist the liver and gut to flush out toxins that have accumulated in body tissue . The Gerson diet is so efficient at facilitating this cleansing process that there is a risk that the liver and gut can become over-loaded. So the enema becomes pretty essential. It's not very elegant or glamourous but it does become a fine art. Enough said, for a more in-depth understanding here's a link
http://gerson.org/pdfs/How_Coffee_Enemas_Work.pdf

Today my face is swollen and I didn't sleep all night. I look like a blow-fish and I'm just staring at the hand-crank juicer and wishing the fruit and veg will juice itself............hmmmmn

Custard cream

It's been a really tough week. Another big flare-up which although very unpleasant means that everything is moving forwards nicely. Of course if I was still going the alopathic or conventional route this would have been something I would seek to suppress because of the extreme discomfort and the 'ugliness' of it. My body has been pushing out poisons all week. Out being the key word here. In the midst of it I still do panic, it's easy to forget that this is what's happening just now and transitory. Already on day six something is lifting, there's a shift happening and I feel stronger. I'm guessing there will be a few more of these to come. For now I've dumped some more toxins. Tomorrow I'm going out, no small thing because there isn't an inch of my body that isn't in someway showing evidence of the week's ordeal.More next on 'dumping' I owe some explanations....

Footnote

"It's like coming home to Miss Haversham sometimes, depressing!' To be quite honest I'm so pleased that my son who has flirted with the position that 'literature is dead', is still able to make reference to a well known classic. Result!

"when are you going to get better? it's been years!"

I couldn't have said it better myself. My worst fear, has Dylan become a young carer? Everything I know from 12 years working with Young carers says yes. The hidden caring is the worrying, the adapting to changing moods and states of health for the child. And this will be a stressor for him no doubt about it. Particularly if this experience happens along the pathway of adolescence, in his way, on his mind. My dear son Dylan is coping so well. He is as grumpy and arsey as any adolescent...good boy! and he has worked hard, maybe could have done a little bit more work, on his mock GCSE's good boy! and he is as self-centred and confident verging on opinionated as I'd expect him to be excellent so far...and at the same time I worry because he always feels so guilty. This is one to keep an eye on and try to acknowledge it as we go along. He's a grand lad and I love him exactly as he is. My situation has been so hard for him to witness. I'm aware that I haven't given any explanations of the 'situation' to readers yet and want to promise that this will come over time. I'd like it to be a growing understanding. It all started when having felt pretty below par for several years and two quite big skin flare-ups, I decided on my 50th birthday to do what I thought would be a two month detox..........

This is how I feel today

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outside..

I've had a pretty nasty few days since I started this. So I'm just stealing energy now. I think as with the healing I will not be taking a linear route with this blog. I am also an artist so sometimes it may be wordless. An image may often say a lot more.... this story begins in it's raw state. I am in a raw state right now

Inside-outside

It all starts here...

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Sunday July 6th 2014

Doing a blog does not come easily, I am usually a pretty private person. However i am going to give this thing a go in the name of supporting others who may be on the self-healing path. So far this journey has not been linear or easy to understand. This has been one of the most difficult projects that I have undertaken in my life so far and in a way this is exactly what it's about. I am transitioning. I am on my way to a better way of life. A life that is about living and being true to myself. I will tell you the story in slices.