Now and then

Now...

Where am I with my health? Well I’ve been using the Gerson protocol and tweaking it as I learn from Kathryn Alexander’s book ‘Dietary Healing’.
http://www.amazon.co.uk/Dietary-Healing-complete-detox-program/dp/0980376289
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=73g84V2NqMM

It’s sometimes like being in a science lesson and I have to battle with my negative critical inner voice that tells me I don’t do science because I’m not clever enough. That’s a whole healing journey in itself I can tell you!

I posted some information about cell rejuvenation last week because I wanted to communicate how clear and careful Kathryn Alexander makes her writing. This is because she is passionate about food as medicine and she is passionate about enabling people to take responsibility for their own health and as a result the health of the planet. It can be complex and frustrating and at the same time it is so empowering because I’m beginning to see that there is a more profound point to my learning and that there is so much to pass on to others who are suffering with their health, particularly for me skin.

I am taking huge steps. At the same time there is something circular going on. There’s a missing link and I am waiting for the time very soon when I can have a consultation with Kathryn which will serve as an extra ‘leg-up’ as she will have the outside perspective and knowledge to see what I need to do to take myself to the next level. So I am still very sensitive to many different foods and substances but I am beginning to understand how different combinations of foods will affect the functioning of my body and it’s healing capacity; so this is how I am striving to create a set of unique conditions. I understand that I can’t ask my body to do things that it is not yet strong enough to do. It’s like taking an undernourished, dehydrated, traumatised donkey and putting a fridge on it’s back. Obviously the donkey will collapse under the weight of the fridge. But perhaps if you were to feed, water and love the donkey for a while eventually you might be able to think about how that donkey could help you to transport that fridge to where you want to go with it. It might be a bit of a clumsy metaphor but you see what I’m saying.

My skin is much improved however I am still using diluted steroid cream on it and this is not good. Basically I’m eating it, so you can see how this might hinder the building of the cellular conditions I am trying to create with different foods. Also I am still taking artificial hormones for my thyroid gland, which is deficient, and this too will hinder things as my body doesn’t really know what to do with it, and so in trying to find where to put it, it becomes side-tracked away from it’s main task which is to heal. These are big factors amongst others and Kathryn will help me to understand and see what the next steps are. I was already very unwell when I last tried to get off the synthetic Thyroxin, so there is fear in me about making another attempt and becoming very ill. However I am almost ready to try again, because I know I am so much stronger than I was, and if I can remove these substances from my system it will make a very big difference. I just have to look at the photographs from that time to see how far I have come.

Then..yikes! aaaargh!

My energy levels are increasing. This week there was a day, world peace day, when I was out and about from 2pm until 11pm, just having a lovely time with a dear friend and whilst I was very tired I managed. I didn’t feel ill just a bit like an older lady (hah hah!) needed to do nothing the next day, but this is monumental for me! I’m also going to some bioenergetics classes once a week. Bioenergetics is a form of bodywork that enables the release of body trauma and tension. It’s really powerful. After the class we all dance together and it’s not just shuffling about, it’s a full on dance like you’ve always wished you could kind of dancing. The bioenergetics just frees you up to fully enjoy the experience and the music. I noticed last week that my skin was more supple and hydrated the next day. Really significantly because everything has been shaken up and distributed so there is a sense of balance and equilibrium and the body loves it. It’s as if the body is an hour-glass and the sand has got stuck up in the top section (the head) and the exercises followed by the dance serve to shake it all down. It’s fabulous and my body loves it!

So I want to share with you.. the tears of honest joy I let go yesterday morning as I absorbed the realisation that once again a beautiful new lodger has found me. Jane. She’s a bit of a ‘whisperer’. She’s gentle and she ‘sees’ people (and animals, so Bear is happy). She brings a new and good energy to this home already. Just this; but it feels special...

...and how lucky and blessed I feel to experience this new and alive life that I have been coming into. The sun was shining and I hung my white sheets out in my newly washed garden, it rained all day the day before. I brushed and stroked my batty cat Bear, who was chasing the wind and chirruping, clearly delighted with the fresh open air. Then I took a peaceful walk in the park next-door. After this some bouncing, a meditation, yoga, breakfast, vegetable rinsing and juicing, got the coffee brewing and did some skin hydrating massage. The day was mine for the taking. No stress no trauma in any corner of it. How wonderful it was! Today I am resolved to make the day what it needs to be for my healing. A walk in the warm rain to start with I think……

Song for today..not true but I like the song..Alwaysplay loud..https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=QO3hlmEyaiA just copy and paste this link into your adress window