Blacksalve..another elbow story..The Horrrah!

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=WIMlPygBV2o

I've been stealing myself for this..a knowledgeable friend gave me this harmless looking jar that looks like something from 'Alice Through the Looking Glass'..It's Blacksalve, a very potent poison not to be messed with. It's death to cancer and all cancerous cells. It literally 'grabs out' the growth from the root. It's a slow process with reportedly excellent results if you are not in a hurry and you are careful and measured in your approach. Because to add insult to injury, since two years ago when I ill-advisedly did some UV light treatment thinking it might help, I've had several skin growths that have been slowly growing and thriving. I'd tried the old remedy of bananna skin face down on them over night and it's definately held them back a bit but nothing sustained. So I'm going in a bit more assertively now, with respect of course. So watch this space for results in the next few days. Where am I going with this? Well that all depends on where I want to end up.

“I know who I was when I got up this morning, but I think I must have been changed several times since then”
― Lewis Carroll, Alice's Adventures in Wonderland and Through the Looking Glass

My skin is very active. Yesterday it looked young and fresh,a new layer forming itself. It wasn't inflamed or itchy for half of the day. In retrospect it was a bit tight and a bit bluey in appearance. But it felt good. By the evening it was itching for England again and peeling off in a most extreme manner. Today it's shell like again.. I feel a bit like a Lychee, very vulnerable inside. It's very distracting, I must have the brain fog. I'm good at multi-tasking when I'm like this but nothing gets completed and I get a bit dizzy. I think my Adrenaline levels are very up and down. Today the sun is going in and out every five minutes I can't settle in it..Feels parallel.

So I've mowed my grass, I've bounced with the birds, I've said "Hello' to my toes today (that was unexpectedly emotional) and I'm about to eat my current favourite meal of potatoes cabbage and cumin with a couple of eggs on top yummy. Then I'm going to continue with my wild woman series of ceramics. Here's one I made earlier..

We are open today!

Wooh it's windy today! I bounced on my trampoline in the open air today. I made it a meditation. My garden at the top of the hill, a hidden secret. The perfect place to meditate; trees dancing and waving , the birds swooping around me almost touching my head, the swish of their wings, energy! It's electric out there.

I went to see a quantum healer on Sunday. http://www.mas-sajady.com/

What a bizarre and powerful experience that was. I'm still digesting it. It was a group healing. I had really mixed feelings about the thing on the day and at the same time there was no denying the immense energy that was around coming through him and from all of us and through him again, swirling around the space, like those birds, touching my hair, my skin my fingertips and then spiralling straight through and into my heart. It was as if he put his energy around my spine and then somehow merged and twisted things around a bit. I'm still feeling it and there's a new sense of ease arrived in my meditation practice. An opening and softening.

We were told to expect discomfort these next few days and weeks. He warned us to be careful with ourselves because we were preparing to let go of all that we have considered to be most important to us and this could lead us into a dark place for a while..I know this dark place quite well and I know I can get out of it. So these days instead of running to get the hell out of there I can stay a while and let my eyes adjust to the light . It always seems darker than it is.

So 'we' are open today. Me and my emotions. Firm and grounded and open. I'm letting things flood in and run out again..If there is a clear means of escape stuff comes in. I began to learn this lesson a few years ago when I adopted an abused cat. Bear was terrified of everything when we got him. I worked out that if I approached him from the side, allowing him to look around us and see that he could run in any direction if he needed to, he would allow me to touch him. Whats more I could touch him if I held out my hand and invited him to touch me. We touched each other. So it became a mutual transaction. No victim no perpetrator not potential for pain or abuse. It's like this.

So I'm chugging along still. A new layer of skin is dropping off and it has been extreme. I've had a wobble and I'm alright. Today I'm going back to my painting with brushes.I'm going to put an image I've had on the go to bed..

Today's song it's a corker, one of my all time favourites! https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=cuhWXamkfw8


ANY COMMENTS OR FEEDBACK WOULD BE GREATLY APPRECIATED. THIS SELF HEALING LARK CAN BE QUITE LONELY SOME DAYS